what are those eyes telling you

i feel vulnerable.  there.  i said it.  out loud.  no, really, i did.  i sat right here at my dining room table and i said the words 'i feel vulnerable' out loud. (it is not enough to say you did something if you didn't really do it)  so i said it.

why is this relevant?  because i am the strong one.  i am the one others call for support and to be uplifted and motivated by.  i get the call when the pieces are falling apart.  did you do something spectacular and you want to celebrate - call me!  i am the consummate cheerleader.  need a safe place to set your cares - i can do that too.  i am the one that is there no matter what.  having a bad day?  need a laugh?  need some perspective?  i am your girl!  i've got your back and i always will.  AND I LOVE IT.  but . . .

but sometimes, every once in a while, i am not equipped for that role.  sometimes i want someone to look me in the eyes and know.  without me saying it.  i can see it in others - can't anyone see it in me? 

ok - enough of the vulnerability shtick - it just doesn't work for me.  (note to self - maybe that is why no one ever asks - i tuck things away rather quickly don't i?  but i digress).  back on track - the whole reason i bring up this topic is for you to pause for just a second and reflect on who the person is in your life that is your go-to person.  your no matter what they are there for you person.  it is an honor to be that person.  it really is!  but every now and again it is really nice to get the authentic care and gentle concern first.  it is ok to be the one that asks the questions and then listens.  and it is a wonderful feeling to receive a bear hug for no particular reason.  look in those eyes that are constantly looking out for you and make sure they are not pools of unmet emotion.

let's face it - we are all primarily the person who is the giver or the receiver.  and we all have a place in the world so this is not about being something or someone you are not.  but what this is about is making sure you are giving your caretaker a little fill up every once in a while.