i sat so very still and tried to hide what i was thinking. but that never really works for me - unless i am asleep i can be read like a first grade primer. so i opened up and spilled. it was cathartic. it was the right thing to do.
amazingly, my day improved. conversations went a bit smoother, i was much more tolerant of those i ran across. i saw things through new eyes. my tone was kinder. i laughed more. it was like an unexpected gift.
as my good friend said to me tonight, "you know, i'm trying very hard to be real. it shouldn't take practice. but it does" how very true. how very true.
may your days be filled with real. and your nights be filled with no regret for not having been real.
There are so many times that I want to say something and dont. Those are the times that i truley hate the way i am. Am i being to kind, am i living in fear, or am i just respecting others and not my true feelings. I think its wonderful that you have identified that there is a time and place for things to be said or not. But we must confront these behaviors or we will stay the same. Nothing changes if nothing changes. Its tough to be blunt, its tough to lay it on the line and not care what others think of us. Its tough to confront a situation with tact and feel good about it afterwards. Ive always been the one who enveyed those who could say what comes to there mind. Yet i continued beating around the bush. All I know is that there is growth in change and its uncomfortable at first but the next time it will be easier.......Great Job keep up the good work....Keep it real. regaurdless if how it feels...but use tact.. hummmmm
ReplyDeleteReality is the heart of revelation. Each day, each moment is for us to remove unreality from the reality of our existence and our relationship with the ultimate reality. The I Am. Keeping it real may be a modern turn of phrase but it lies at the heart of our calling, regardless of the language.
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Love it... Holding things in is never good... it's just hard often to remember to let the good out because it doesn't boil... the bad boils and if we don't let it out... for an adult it's like a toddler doing the pee pee dance... let it out or an accident is going to happen:) XOXO
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