The more I realize the less I know

Once again I'm overcome with emotion. So much hate. And frustration. And pain. And mistrust.  Not in me!  But out "there". I wish I knew how to bottle those negative emotions and use them to power more love. And tolerance. And acceptance. 

I had two distinct instances today that struck me just how sick and out of balance the world is. One conversation was about being racist. It was clearly something taught at a young age. I just can't imagine getting to the place that judgement based on skin color or nationality would merit such strong distaste for another human being without even knowing the person. 

The second instance was a mature (late 60's early 70's) couple at dinner. She railed on him the entire time. And he snarled back. It seemed to work for the two of them. They were not particularly upset with one another - it was just their way. 

These two scenarios got me to thinking - what would be different if each one led with love?  Would it make any difference in the way the food tasted?  Would she look lovingly at others versus writing them off because they were a different color?  

I just hope I raised my two boys to lead with love. It's a choice.  I love you. 

One call

Hello?

Hi. Is this Kim?

No. Who is this?

Perhaps I have the wrong number. Please accept my apology. 

And then it hit me. Hard. 

Roller coaster. Of love. Wha hoo hoo hoo hoooo

Remember this one?  http://youtu.be/aBkVV9xxCHE

That's how I feel lately. So I am either going to sit down, fasten the seat belt low and tight across my lap, keep my feet and hands inside the moving vehicle and hold on OR I'm going to grow a fro and make sure it covers one eye and call it good. 

How do you do that thing you do?

There is a yogi coming to my town soon. His pr picture shows him in a meditative state, sitting cross-legged on the ground, wrapped in a texurized, bright yellow sari of sorts. He is sort of a really big deal. Many will travel miles and miles to sit at his feet and learn to just be - ptacticing meditation, yoga & kindness. I have the utmost respect for this way of living. I am sure based on his bio he is deserving of listening to and learning from. 

But I really just want to ask him how he gets his sari wrapped so neatly!  

Crack the code

There is no secret code. There is just you, the choices you make and the consequences of those choices. It's the same for everyone. In every situation. 

So stop making things more complicated than necessary. Weigh your options, makes your decision accordingly and gently go forward. 

Honor yourself during the process by remaining drama free. Honor others with the same courtesy. 

Thinking chair thoughts sans the chair

Why in the world would you move where you know no one to take a job in an industry you've never worked before in a part of the world you've never stepped foot?  What are you running from?  What are you running to? Are you like a woman monk?  Is there something in particular you are trying to escape?  Achieve?  Redo?  Figure out?  

Pause

The answers vary depending on the day. Ask me again tomorrow.