I may smell like a goat but I do not climb like one.

Nothing in nature is symmetrical. As I was scaling the four-tiered waterfall with my mountain goat-like son it dawned on me that as challenging as up would be, going down will be nothing short of miraculous. Suffice it to say if you read this I made it down. 

Sitting. Still.

My ability to sit still for hours on end has surpassed even my comprehension. I no longer know if this is full fledged depression or an exemplary case of caring for ones self at the most basic level. 

What's your future?

Plans change

Priorities shift

Events spiral

Life evolves

People adjust

Others seek

Some wither

Few blossom

Many lean

Then...

Well, that's up to you. 

s.a.a.

You'd think I'd get use to this exercise. Being on this side of popular opinion. 

Raising a single eyebrow in confusion. 

Never quite protesting - it seems a moot point. 

Wondering if my eyes see the same thing everyone else is observing. 

Pondering the big picture and the hearts. 

Then

 I remember - standing alone again has yet to fail me. Why should this be any different. 

alterations given by the universe

Losing what you don't plan to lose is never fun.  For me it has most recently been giving up a place on a board of directors that meant a lot personally, placing distance between some friends and a new, yet familiar path for my best friend - it ain't easy being odd man out. 

I have said I embrace change. And I do. But I much prefer it on my own terms. 

So, universe, have your way with me because I am not capable of altering a damn thing. 

What now

There comes a time when what you are working towards or want no longer intersect with possibility. Those days are the toughest. 

Balance the act

There are many things in life I look back on and wish I would have done or would have done differently. Not in necessarily a sad way - but rather just reflecting on why certain dreams faded and others became a reality.

My life is brought to you by decisions made based on information on hand at the time. Snap decisions were made. And then other times I took so long to make a decision the opportunity simply passed. 

I guess I write this so perhaps you can learn from me. You always think you have plenty of time to do whatever it is that you want to do. When in reality the clock is ticking. The parts that move so freely allowing you the chance to do whatever it is that you want to do become rusty with caution and apprehension, debt and responsibility. 

So, finish the degree, chase the job, build the life that you want. Do not wait until everything is perfect because it never will be. And do not move with disregard to yourself or the consequences of your actions because once you are moving sometimes inertia takes over and you have no choice. 

Seek balance. You'll find it behind the bottle of Tylenol, on top of the bills, next to the list. Oh, and when you do find it, it will be because you were quiet enough to recognize it. 

Signs

There are signs every where. They are lit with neon bulbs. Why can't I take them at face value instead of feeling the need to blaze my own trail?

It is clearly past time to take inventory. May I borrow your Mont Blanc please?